Memories in practice

 "Without speed you can't be precise, without precision you cannot do the technique"

I remember this being said in one of the  weapons seminar in Bourg Argental by our master Andre Cognard.

My mind works in a certain pattern when  I teach or practice alone. I look around for movements in nature to keep me still or help me understand a certain rythm or flow. Then there are memories. I believe the technique I practice, particularly summons specific memories. While I work the muscles of my arms, legs, torso try to keep the multiple variables of a technique in place. While the brain wanders to spaces where I first learnt this technique and then  how it evolved over time for me and reimagine teaching these to someone else.   I begin to calculate the level of excellence that remains to be achieved to be able teach something well. I then remember my teachers who built up the technique in me patiently, correcting , explaining endlessly. I reimagine teaching again and again , repeating the same instructions , fine tuning , accepting my own mistakes and my own  knowledge incomplete . I learn to be more honest but still it brings  frustration. But then I learn to wait before reacting incorrectly at the wrong time. I remember...not everything yet!